02/2020

02/2020#

What Peter Thiel missed—

Humans are extremely malleable 
Man is born without instinct 
Therefore our identity
Arises from lifelong training
Leaving us perfectly corruptible 

So “identity” is no bubble, it’s ever more..

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Rarefied in age of Information & mimicry

Dionysian rituals in their collectiveness 
Recall a more primeval origin of man 
Identity at this point belongs to the group 
Origins are in shared cultural references 
No room for corrupting revered traditions

Anti-technological education befitting 

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March 16-20
J (Arrival is 14th)
Business ends 21st
Might throw in extra days
DC

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Totally add all songs he ever produced to poseidon

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The abomination of Obama’s nation

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“Reimagining Diversity & Inclusion: A Pathway to Courageous Conversations,” by Derreck Kayongo, entrepreneur, Global Soap Project founder, CNN Hero, and former CEO of the Center for Civil and Human Rights.

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02/02/2020 20:20:20

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Nuptial gifts — WTF??

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Animal behaviorists believe these “deals” could have evolved for several reasons: to encourage sex; to provide a kind of offspring support for the third party’s potential progeny; or to lay the groundwork for a possible future relationship. In any case, with some of the examples stretching back millions of years, prostitution seems to live up to its reputation as the oldest profession.

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Discursive article on live donor risk from the donors perspective

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“the noblest human being (Christ), the purest philosopher (Baruch Spinoza), the mightiest book, and the most effective moral code in the world”

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CVP 2020/02/02
Met Amanda with Dave (hubby)
Really great folks

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Cost of 30-second commercial
$5.6 million

Super bowl LIV

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My 02/02/2020 WhatsApp DP:
Life be tight :(

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Hellen
Daniel

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Waverly — February 8
Ethiopians biddies :-)

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Imz whatsApp: Problem of producing a free spirit with the energy,
strength & endurance to oppose tradition is the
same as the problem of producing genius

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The Nietzschean project was to establish a passion for greatness in a world without gods

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It’s all about epistemology — how we view things
When the love of your life runs off with someone else?
You’ll only hurt if you insist that she’s the love of your life
Reality and dream are clashing and so “bando”
Abandon the ridiculous outlook :(

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Romanticism, at best, is a vicarious heroism

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“Only he who changes remains akin to me”

The striving for excellence is tantamount to endemic change in the individual who is always in competition with former selves

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So what then did Nietzsche believe politically? In some respects it is difficult to say a priori, since if one could give a strict formula for how to produce the “highest specimens” of humanity then they would cease to be the highest. Instead their greatness and creativity would be manufactured and predictable. As Nietzsche sometimes puts it, a priori formulas must occasionally give way to the nobility of the “nose,” which recognizes the scent of greatness and vulgarity when it is near. My sense is that Nietzsche is best understood as a radical individualist; one who insists passionately that our duty in life is to become what we are. But what kind of person is that? And how can we avoid false paths? I think the deepest clue lies in his profound treatment of resentment, which is well described by Gilles Deleuze in his classic book Nietzsche:

We rediscover the definition of resentment: resentment is a reaction which simultaneously becomes perceptible and ceases to be acted: a formula which defines sickness in general. Nietzsche is not simply saying that resentment is a sickness, but rather that sickness as such is a form or resentment.

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For Nietzsche, much of human action which appears superficially great is actually done for slavish reasons. The weakness we feel at our limitations becomes a hatred for those who present themselves as our betters, and we therefore undertake works to either bring them down or prove our own superiority. This can take myriad forms, from the socialist demand to redistribute wealth to the poor to the nationalist demand that intellectually minded cosmopolitans are corrupting the pure soul of the real people. Sometimes it even takes more vulgar forms, for instance when someone engages in self-aggrandizing acts to draw attention to themselves from the mass of people who dared to ignore them. In some circumstances, resentment can lead to tremendous and terrifying outbursts of energy, which give it the appearance of strength and power. But this is a lie, since buried beneath all such acts is a personal and collective weakness which stifles all efforts to truly overcome its opposition.

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The person driven by resentment may claim to hate the rich or the foreigner and wish them to be destroyed. But they are also dependent on them, since the only way the resentful can feel any real power is by feeling morally superior to what opposes them. The poor need to feel morally superior to the rich to claim they are victims being exploited, as nationalists needs to feel morally superior to the foreigner to feel pride in their collective identity. In this sense, resentment is an impotent force which can wail and brag, but never achieve anything truly for itself. This is left to the truly great person, who lives for himself and his values and cares little enough for the opinions or actions of others.

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Nietzsche and Politics
The goal of humanity lies in its highest specimens.
~Friedrich Nietzsche, Untimely Meditations
Unlike the controversy surrounding Marx and Heidegger, the outrage associated with Nietzsche has given way to ubiquitous and lavish praise. Since the end of the Second World War, thanks in no small part to the tireless efforts of interpreters like Walter Kaufmann, there has been a flurry of more rigorous and charitable interpretations of Nietzsche. The range is truly impressive; perhaps no other philosopher has influenced so many different opinions. Nietzsche was a profound influence on figures like Gilles Deleuze and Michel Foucault who have become prominently associated with the political Left, who supported overcoming society’s remaining moral and traditional barriers to self-creation. Other figures influenced by Nietzsche moved to the political Right, including the libertarian Ayn Rand and the classicist Leo Strauss. Artists have invoked his work to call for radical new aesthetic forms to emerge, while others have appealed to him to decry the decadence of modern art and feeling. Perhaps most interestingly, Nietzsche has even gained some popular traction, with his books selling millions of copies despite their strange topics and myriad styles. Despite this, Nietzsche remains a thinker very much at odds with many of the political positions at play today. This is perhaps inevitable, as Nietzsche was ever the contrarian and would likely have approved of Kierkegaard’s solemn maxim that “when you label me, you negate me.”
Firstly, Nietzsche was certainly in no way a progressive in gestation. He would almost certainly have had nothing but contempt for the postmodern proponents of difference and toleration who invoke aspects of his thought. Nietzsche was a staunch elitist who frequently derided the “herd” which made up most of mankind. And he was openly contemptuous of many cultural practices and traditions; lampooning Buddhism, dismissing the British as a nation of mediocre shopkeepers, and of course endlessly denigrating Judeo-Christianity as religions of “resentment” oriented by a “slave” morality. Moreover, Nietzsche had little good to say about either socialism or radical democracy, regarding them as little more than watered down efforts at secularizing vulgar Christian tropes.

Secondly, Nietzsche would not have been fond of contemporary liberalism—classical or egalitarian—and liberal rights, either. For Nietzsche, the call for rights—whether to private property or welfare—were simply slavish demands by the weak for protection from the worthy and strong. As John Rawls pointed out in his critique of Nietzschian “perfectionism,” there is a strong sense in Nietzsche that society does not exist to benefit all of its members. Instead, it exists to enable the few truly great men and women to rise and establish new and almost god-like kinds of values. It was offensive that such figures must be held back by the mediocrity of humankind; great men like Napoleon cared little for the rights and welfare of others as they rode out to remake the world. This, of course, did not mean that such individuals wanted to trample over others as a sign of their greatness. Rather, as he put in On the Genealogy of Morals, the great “eagle” devotes very little thought one way or another to the “lambs” beneath it. But that includes feelings of pity where the lamb lies between the eagle and its goals.
There is nothing very odd about lambs disliking birds of prey, but this is no reason for holding it against large birds of prey that they carry off lambs. And when the lambs whisper among themselves, ‘These birds of prey are evil, and does this not give us a right to say that whatever of the opposite of a bird of prey must be good?’ there is nothing intrinsically wrong with such an argument—though the birds of prey will look somewhat quizzically and say, ‘We have nothing against these good lambs; in fact, we love them; nothing tastes better than a tender lamb.’

Thirdly, Nietzsche would hardly be a friend of the contemporary Right either, in any of its various forms. Despite some rejigging by figures like Ayn Rand, Nietzsche was hardly a proto-libertarian or classical liberal. Nietzsche disdained consumer culture and capitalism, seeing it as producing vulgar and decadent societies of “last men” focused on the pursuit of meaningless wealth and menial satisfactions. These last men lived out their days in material affluence, but were committed to no truly great projects, mostly concerned with issues like “health” and physical appearance. One can think of the Wall Street icons ridiculed by Bret Easton Ellis in American Psycho, each thinking he was lord of the world and each in fact tedious and indistinguishable from on another. Nietzsche was also dismissive of nationalism, sharing Schopenhauer’s opinion that it was an infantile outlook for individuals not strong enough to will their own destiny without banding together with the rest of the “herd.” Part of this is due to Nietzsche’s personal disdain for German nationalism, and his preference for pan-Europeanism. Whether this means he would be fond of the contemporary European Union, with its liberal outlook and social democratic policies, one can only guess. But he would have certainly regarded the idea of moving away from the nation-state model appealing. 

Finally, Nietzsche would have found the invocations by the far Right—past and present—infuriating. He often looked at his sister Elizabeth’s gradual descent into German nationalism and later Nazism with an uncharacteristic mixture of pity and scorn. Had Nietzsche lived to see the rise of Hitler, he would likely have immediately recognized the Austrian dropout as the mean and resentful creature he was. He would likely have been horrified to see his work on the will to power and the great man transformed into a kind of racist eugenics, insisting that his work was about the individual self and not collective genetic overcoming. And, of course, Nietzsche would regard the deindividuation of totalitarianism, its attempt to completely assimilate the single person into the nation, as nihilistic. Today, no doubt Nietzsche would have lambasted the alt-right efforts to associate his work with concerns about immigration and the racial makeup of society.

So what then did Nietzsche believe politically? In some respects it is difficult to say a priori, since if one could give a strict formula for how to produce the “highest specimens” of humanity then they would cease to be the highest. Instead their greatness and creativity would be manufactured and predictable. As Nietzsche sometimes puts it, a priori formulas must occasionally give way to the nobility of the “nose,” which recognizes the scent of greatness and vulgarity when it is near. My sense is that Nietzsche is best understood as a radical individualist; one who insists passionately that our duty in life is to become what we are. But what kind of person is that? And how can we avoid false paths? I think the deepest clue lies in his profound treatment of resentment, which is well described by Gilles Deleuze in his classic book Nietzsche:

We rediscover the definition of resentment: resentment is a reaction which simultaneously becomes perceptible and ceases to be acted: a formula which defines sickness in general. Nietzsche is not simply saying that resentment is a sickness, but rather that sickness as such is a form or resentment.

For Nietzsche, much of human action which appears superficially great is actually done for slavish reasons. The weakness we feel at our limitations becomes a hatred for those who present themselves as our betters, and we therefore undertake works to either bring them down or prove our own superiority. This can take myriad forms, from the socialist demand to redistribute wealth to the poor to the nationalist demand that intellectually minded cosmopolitans are corrupting the pure soul of the real people. Sometimes it even takes more vulgar forms, for instance when someone engages in self-aggrandizing acts to draw attention to themselves from the mass of people who dared to ignore them. In some circumstances, resentment can lead to tremendous and terrifying outbursts of energy, which give it the appearance of strength and power. But this is a lie, since buried beneath all such acts is a personal and collective weakness which stifles all efforts to truly overcome its opposition.

The person driven by resentment may claim to hate the rich or the foreigner and wish them to be destroyed. But they are also dependent on them, since the only way the resentful can feel any real power is by feeling morally superior to what opposes them. The poor need to feel morally superior to the rich to claim they are victims being exploited, as nationalists needs to feel morally superior to the foreigner to feel pride in their collective identity. In this sense, resentment is an impotent force which can wail and brag, but never achieve anything truly for itself. This is left to the truly great person, who lives for himself and his values and cares little enough for the opinions or actions of others.

Conclusion: What Can We Learn From Nietzsche
Nietzsche is one of the most difficult thinkers in the Western canon to think through. This is both in spite and because of his brilliant literary powers. In part due to illness which hampered his ability to write for an extended period of time, most of Nietzsche’s writings appear as aphorisms and short essays rather than sustained works. Nietzsche was also moody and emotional, meaning that he occasionally lashes out with vitriol against a figure or idea which is later treated more soberly. Overall, his philosophy is not a manual for how to become a Nietzschian, but rather how to overcome one’s self limitations and unleash new creative potential and insight. Nonetheless, there are two key points we can pick up from his work.

Firstly, Nietzsche draws our attention to the historical contingency of many of our moral conceits. This is perhaps best accomplished in the On the Genealogy of Morals and the short books Twilight of the Idols and The Antichrist. In these works, Nietzsche develops some of his most striking imagery and ideas. He suggests that most every moral philosopher and figure thus far has failed to recognize that the moral claims they presented were historically and psychologically motivated. They took the moral claims presented as true, when in fact they were culturally or psychologically motivated. The failure to acknowledge this left us unable to recognize the deepest prompts to our actions, leading to a great deal of corruption and vulgarization.

For instance, Nietzsche famously had mixed feelings about Jesus Christ, occasionally ridiculing him, and occasionally praising him as the only opponent worthy of the Antichrist. In either case, he was the only real Christian and he “died on the cross.” Later Christians appropriated his rhetoric to argue that he sought to bring universal love. The reality is that they wanted to replace the aristocratic and warlike ancient Greco-Roman world with one that conformed to the mediocrity of the slaves, and so needed to find a way to re-describe weakness and servility as a moral virtue. The upshot was Christian morality, which was resentful to its core. Nietzsche often gleefully pointed out how the religion of universal love was paranoid about sin, fixating with almost erotic satisfaction on the suffering of those in hell. Nietzsche thought that unawareness of often unconscious motivators leads us to make vulgar and baseless moral claims. This insight is frequently misused today by a host of commentators who substitute pop-psychologism for real analysis of their opponent’s position. Invocations of resentment can also be dangerously overused to dismiss appeals which are really about fairness or justice. Nonetheless, it was a profound contribution to our understanding of morality.
Secondly, and most innovatively, Nietzsche’s writings radically deepened our understanding of what constitutes authentic individuality. Like his existentialist kin Søren Kierkegaard and Simone de Beauvoir, Nietzsche recognized that we all too often regard being an individual as simply doing what we profess to want. It certainly is not mere consumerism and the acquisition of material goods. He draws our attention to the many ways in which external factors like culture and internal psychological motivations like resentment can actually lead us to become false or vulgar iterations of our selves. The task then is to free ourselves from these inauthentic constraints through continuous and arduous self-overcoming.

I don’t think Nietzsche was concerned with ‘authenticity’ in the Maslowian sense (which is where you seem headed in the last paragraph; I don’t know Kierkegaard well enough definitively to add his name here, too.) Don’t forget that Nietzsche believed in the ubiquity of the will to power — he says in ‘The Will To Power’ that the WTP is what we are — and therefore also believed in the inevitability – and value – of great social hierarchies. (And of our fundamental needs to obey — and command.) Any Nietzschean project of ‘becoming who one is’ must therefore reconcile itself with such elemental facts of ‘nature’ and human nature. This is something well beyond ‘self-overcoming’ of (presumably socialized) ‘inauthentic constraints’: it means transcending many constraints we’ve also come to identify as human; becoming (as N says in ‘Beyond Good and Evil’) at once ‘more G-d and more beast’.Also, you make no mention of N’s epistemology — which is a useful part of his moral critique and not at all separate from it. Because we misperceive the world – via anthropological and linguistic errors – we also fail to see its essence — the sovereignty of the will to power. (We mistakenly believe in ‘things’, cause and effect, etc. – the whole mechanistic universe.) This erroneous ‘dependable and logical’ world we’ve constructed for ourselves is also not ‘noble’ in N’s view: ‘reason,’ science and the deification of Truth are for him already moralistic corruptions of the spirit; and they have accordingly only added to the original perceptual/phenomenological errors of our forefathers. (Quantum physics, or at least so I glean, also seems to be leaning to a conception of the world not composed of matter but of loci of information; or perhaps as N would say, of ‘centers of force’.) For Nietzsche, any ‘optimum individual’ (we used to call him the Superman) must needs grasp all this, too, and see the world in a wholly new way: as composed of the will to power and nothing more.Though perhaps no one can yet experience such a world-view, Nietzsche’s argument does draw back the veil and raise our consciousness almost to the point.

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The truly heroic culture produces great men not so much to bow down before them as to step beyond them. The heroic individual must serve as a stimulant to further growth and the production of a still higher type 

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In the physical sciences, when errors of measurement and other noise are found to be of the same order of magnitude as the phenomena under study, the response is not to to try to squeeze more information out of the data by statistical means; it is instead to find techniques for observing the phenomena at a higher level of resolution. The corresponding strategy for economics is obvious: to secure new kinds of data at the micro level, data that will provide direct evidence about the behavior of economic agents and the ways in which they go about making their decisions (support fo this thesis comes from surprising directions. See Lucas, 1980, pp.288-289). 

Herbert Simon

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Herbert Simon & Language Models [8]

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I agree, if you like it then you should have put a ring on it

But if I put a ring on everything I liked, then, Houston, we’d have a problem :-)

No pun on nativity intended!

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Before D.C.s Duke Ellington
There was James R. Europe

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Marsalis responded to criticism by saying, “You can’t enter a battle and expect not to get hurt. He said that losing the freedom to criticize is “to accept mob rule, it is a step back towards slavery.

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I will NOT call Estelle ever again. Lets say this is a $600 epistemological experiment

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K.581

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Op. 123, 125, 127

Missa Solemnis 
Ode to Joy 
String quartet 12: Andante 

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Ask Estelle which Cameroonian language she speaks

She believes the most important thing that history has ever taught her is kindness. Her greatest influence is the Congolese historian Elikia M’Bokolo. Otele speaks French, English, some German, and three Cameroonian languages, Ewondo, Eton and Bulu.

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Somersaulting locusts invade East Africa
🤸🏿‍♂️🤸‍♂️

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#goingviral
Corona virus 🦠

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After completing her doctoral studies, Otele was made an Associate Professor at Université Paris XIII. She has written about cultural and collective memory and the memorialisation of the past. She analyses the legacies of European colonisation in post-slavery societies. She has also published academic articles about Afro-European identities, including 'Frenchness', British identities in Wales, and what it meant to be British, Welsh and Black
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In 2018, at the age of 48, Otele became the first Black woman to be made Professor of History in the United Kingdom.[6] She acknowledged that her promotion to the professoriate took longer because she has caring responsibilities as a mother to two children and because she is a woman of colour.[14] The Race, Ethnicity & Equality Report published by the Royal Historical Society in October 2018 found that only 0.5% of historians working in UK universities are black.[15] Until Otele's promotion there had never been a black woman Professor of History in the UK.[16] Otele hopes that her appointment will 'open the door for many hard-working women, especially black women in academia'.[17] On her promotion Otele commented that "any success that is used only to improve one's own life is a waste of possibilities. That is why being the first black female history professor does not mean anything to me if I'm not given and can't find means to bring others up."[5] Otele also highlighted the difficulties she encountered in becoming a Professor: "I've worked very hard and kept pushing and had a family...It's hard. I'm tired. It's bleak."[18] The Vice-Chancellor of Bath Spa University, Professor Susan Rigby described Otele as "world-class and internationally respected".[19] Otele announced her promotion from her active Twitter account.[20]

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Many literary critics have written interpretations of Shakespeare from a Marxist perspective, and several prominent commentators on Shakespeare (like George Bernard Shaw and Bertolt Brecht) drew on Marxian ideas in their understanding of his body of work. The Russian revolutionary Leon Trotsky, unusually steeped in European literary culture for a Bolshevik, sought to explain what was so interesting about Shakespeare to Marxists:

In the tragedies of Shakespeare, which would be entirely unthinkable without the Reformation*, the fate of the ancients and the passions of the mediaeval Christians are crowded out by individual human passions, such as love, jealousy, revengeful greediness, and spiritual dissension. But in every one of Shakespeare’s dramas, the individual passion is carried to such a high degree of tension that it outgrows the individual, becomes super-personal, and is transformed into a fate of a certain kind. The jealousy of Othello, the ambition of Macbeth, the greed of Shylock, the love of Romeo and Juliet, the arrogance of Coriolanus, the spiritual wavering of Hamlet, are all of this kind…

For Trotsky, Shakespeare represents the birth of modern literature by placing the individual man, his own personal desires and emotions, in the centre of the narrative, symbolizing the equally progressive and destructive aspirations for personal emancipation characterizing the bourgeois revolt against feudalism. After Shakespeare, he writes, ‘we shall no longer accept a tragedy in which God gives orders and man submits. Moreover, there will be no one to write such a tragedy.’

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In 1999 Routledge published Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief. The book, which took Peterson 13 years to complete, describes a comprehensive theory about how people construct meaning, form beliefs and make narratives using ideas from various fields including mythology, religion, literature, philosophy and psychology in accordance to the modern scientific understanding of how the brain functions.[31][5][43]
According to Peterson, his main goal was to examine why both individuals and groups participate in social conflict, explore the reasoning and motivation individuals take to support their belief systems (i.e. ideological identification[31]) that eventually results in killing and pathological atrocities like the Gulag, the Auschwitz concentration camp and the Rwandan genocide.[31][5][43] He considers that an "analysis of the world's religious ideas might allow us to describe our essential morality and eventually develop a universal system of morality".[43] Jungian archetypes play an important role in the book.[4]
In 2004, a 13-part TV series based on Peterson's book Maps of Meaning: The Architecture of Belief aired on TVOntario.[25][33][44]

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Why is “Knowledge” Intertwined with “Woman”?
If this is my year of “Epistemology” why so intertwined with “Estelle”?
Because — if truth is a woman, what then?? Our failure to seduce her says it all :-)

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I found this fellow at a critical point of my understanding of epistemology

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Rationality doesn’t fail in its analysis of history
We believe what advantages us
Slaughter dissenters
Makes sense
Amen!

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I recall too with great intensity an early reading experience that had nothing to do with imaginative literature. I read Nietzsche’s “Genealogy of Morals” — I do not know where I would have come across it — and I was unbelievably disturbed by it. I can only think of the French word, bouleversé, turned upside down. … it still seems to me an astonishing work, marvelous and hateful at the same time, brilliant and horrible. Even now, so many years later, I can actually channel the feeling, as it were, of getting hit by its intellectual and rhetorical violence. Greeblatt

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Couldn’t we have done all this WITH Andrew around?
Why did he have to die to awake us?
Thats the question!

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What was the book that most influenced your life or your career as a writer?

Strangely enough, it is probably Nietzsche’s On the Genealogy of Morals, which I must have read as a freshman in college. It deeply shocked and upset me; in fact I hated it. But it deeply challenged everything I believed in and cared about; it made me understand that a book could do such a thing, and I have never fully recovered from its recklessness and brilliance — Greenblatt

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Trotsky is my man 👨🏾

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Marx’s Opium of Masses
Nietzsche’s Direction-Changer
Dostoevsky’s Bread 🥯 🍞 🥖
Priestly Shepherds Anesthetize their Flock
Kakira’s Madhvani Gives Scholarships

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Gracias señor — JIT request yesterday!!
This has been a very humbling 3 years
And I’m grateful that I’ve had it

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On February 12, 2020 at 3:43 PM I lose interest in Epistemology

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Today —  February 12, 2020 at 8:45 AM — is the day of the great purge of my dropbox folders
Curiously exactly 365 days following my K08 submission; And day after receiving a JIT request from NIH
Some strange stuff here if you think of it; but Nietzsche, Marx, Dostoevsky, and Trotsky are partly to blame

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Purge is leading to economy and clarity (JIT was for my original K08, not resubmission — confused DS!)
I seem to better understand Raphael, Mozart — , and Shakespeare (and everything)
Have I arrived or returned to where I was 8 years ago? Plus ça change.. 

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8:59 AM to 10:27AM
What an experience!
Ridded self of 88 docs

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There’s a chance Estelle is autistic — or a just socially awkward

Absence of emotional responses is really killing me (but her background might offer an explanation)

Granted, I’m not going to think about it again

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The value of pleasant surprises!!
Appreciated via its absence
Sort of a mirror to me :(
Opposite of schadenfreude
What a life lesson at 40!

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Ok but
I want
I don’t want
But you should
I won’t have time
Can you help me pay
I want to get my

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2020/02/12 8:29 PM
Stop loss order
Fuck!

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Knowledge, Epistemology?
Let’s call the whole thing off!
It is all about resilience :-)
As old wisdom says: hang in there —
Give fortune a chance

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February 13, 2020 at 4:51 AM

Thank you, thank you, thank you!
I’d never have experienced a xxxxxxxx if it
Weren’t for you running away :-) . ¡Spent the entire night reading about it!
And PYT didn’t understand what the haps

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2020/02/12 at 11.57 PM
I got battle injuries in my crib!
Here is the proof —

But well
It was worth the while
Since —

It has been a storm brewing for a while now
But finally
Thunder, lightening, rain showers — flood

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1,001+999+1,850+150+1,950=$6,000

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Taking over from a legendary figure at the firm at a troubled moment in its history, Thiam studied the earnings profile, growth potential, embedded risks and running costs of each of the bank’s core businesses, as well as the group capital position and reporting structure

Full article: https://www.euromoney.com/article/b199lzvsyn5m0j/the-master-strategist-how-tidjane-thiam-brought-a-revolution-to-credit-suisse?copyrightInfo=true Visit http://www.euromoney.com/reprints for additional distribution rights. For more articles like this, follow us @euromoney on Twitter.

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Siege Feb 29 in New York
— call Norah
— talk to Joan
— rope mark in (visa?)

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The master strategist: How Tidjane Thiam brought a revolution to Credit Suisse | Euromoney [9]

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Number of live donations per year, per month

See graphic detail from economist

Will help explain between year variance and within year (ie monthly)

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Peter Lee of Euromoney blows it out of the park here —FYI he joined Euromoney straight from Oxford university in 1985, swapping the delights of studying Coleridge and Wordsworth for the more rigorous discipline of breaking news out of the syndicated loan market.

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Taking over from a legendary figure at the firm at a troubled moment in its history, Thiam studied the earnings profile, growth potential, embedded risks and running costs of each of the bank’s core businesses, as well as the group capital position and reporting structure. 

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Unibroque!!!
Dark ale abv 9% 👌🏾

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With neat spectacles, sharply parted hair and a taste for discreet but heavyweight timepieces by the luxury Swiss With neat spectacles, sharply parted hair and a taste for discreet but heavyweight timepieces by the luxury Swiss watchmaker IWC, Mr Khan always cut a smooth figure at gatherings in Zurich. But it was his solicitous interest in others, and memory for small personal details, that marked him out on the social circuit from other hard-driving titans of high finance. Mr Khan always cut a smooth figure at gatherings in Zurich [9]

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His resignation capped a four-month corporate surveillance saga that has haunted Credit Suisse and cast a shadow over the entire Swiss banking sector. The fallout has also reignited allegations of xenophobia and racism that have hung over Zurich’s insular elite since Mr Thiam — the first black chief executive of a major European bank — was appointed from insurer Prudential five years ago.

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Estelle wakes up at 10:45 AM 🤦🏾‍♂️

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Yield Curve μ 
                     \
                     Complex ψ —> Equity Markets 𝛿 —> ? κ
                     /
                     Asset Price Volatility σ
I don’t want to underestimate the complexity of banking, but I’m hardly a stranger to financial services or to financial markets,” Thiam tells Euromoney. “We all deal with the same yield curve, the same equity markets, the same volatility. Yet people were acting as if I had landed at the bank from planet Mars. Saying that it was risky for Credit Suisse to appoint a non-banker felt to me like a cheap shot.” 

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Goldman was traditionally solid and staid, slow to move into new businesses or to expand outside the US. Commodities trader J Aron, bought in 1981, was Goldman’s first acquisition since 1923. The firm waited until 1988 before following the rest of Wall Street into asset management and until 1990 before running a swaps book of any size. It did not squander its capital on high-risk bridge loans to LBOs. It also resisted buying a UK broker. Instead, Goldman used its reputation as an expert defender in contested acquisitions.

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A UK merchant banker recalls a meeting about a European privatization deal held on a stormy weekend in the city of London, late last year. Realizing that nothing more could be done that evening, bankers from various firms started hailing taxis and heading their separate ways. The Goldman team, to the amazement of their British counterparts, suddenly appeared in tracksuits and set off running together through the sleet and rain towards west London.

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Estelle is pure ontology
She has no questions
And lives in the moment
Giving her $$$ works in reality
But don’t expect a change of world-view

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I would chose Carl Jung over Freud
But Konrad Lorenz over Carl Jung
Friedrich Nietzsche hovers above :-)
So we are biologically programmed
And so we need to overcome that

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Lorenz: There are several. Indoctrination by ideology is one of the cultural factors capable of causing the most serious derailments of collective aggression. A doctrine’s power of conviction increases with the square of the number of men participating in it—the relationship is geometric. As soon as a doctrine has a sufficient number of adherents, the nonconformist becomes a heretic who must be liquidated.

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Father brown — Netflix

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        Edrophonium μ 
                      \
                       IgG ψ —> AChIn 𝛿 —> Droop κ
                       /
                        Thymoma σ

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Ice test 🥶 vs. Eyes test 😃

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Shared this with daddy — Positive/Optimistic psychology

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Daddy enjoyed conversation
Might call again soon
Folks can’t hand being awake* (could be worse for them)
Thats where it cut off from
Awakened didn’t ever need prompter (m7)

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Giving advocacy a bad name:
Negotiating with Wolves to “Shepherd” the lambs
Everything is Futile 
While that is my pessimistic conclusion
I’m hand you the only optimist I endorse: Martin Seligman

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Left off on “make believe”
Other moiety of human mind 
And the twixt shall not be Twain
How am I able to apply for grants?
Because I know how to write fiction!!!

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— GRANT12790139 (Pending Administrative Review), GRANT12969947, 1K08AG065520-01
— Status: changed from SRG review completed: Council review pending to: Pending administrative Review
— Gracias Señor! Grazie Mille! Mucho Gracias
— Email from Xxx Xxx <xxx@mail.nih.gov>

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Estelle — Could do with AirPods :-)

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      Categories μ 
                     \
                      Within ψ —> Between* 𝛿 —> Variance κ
                       /
                        Kontinua σ
When you think in categories (like calendar year):
Underestimate within group variance (Same Identity)
Overestimate between group variance  (Different) 
Categorical boundaries kill big picture (Anova)
Emergence of “change” within group isn’t causal 

     Lorenz μ 
              \
                Identity ψ —> Time 𝛿 —> Change* κ
                /
                 Sapolsky σ

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It’s torture calling Estelle We know the consequences
Now do we wish to avoid torture?
From this day forth I’m truly Dionysian

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February 18, 2020 at 2:46 PM
I created the file “confluence.png”
This is perhaps the final turning point
Links Nietzsche to Sapolsky and back to Kant
Clarifies everything about the Kategorischer Imperativ

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Let Estelle have it unconditionally
I’m not her life coach
And she is not interested in a tutor

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The IGF-1 Trade-Off: Performance vs. Longevity

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Ask Brian For his GTPCI app

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      Shephard μ 
                 \
                  Green Pasteurs, Still Waters ψ —> Dwell in House Forever 𝛿 —> Valley of the Death κ
                  /
                   In Presence of Mine Enemies σ

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The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want!

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Prometheus — a serious advocate of the “beyond”
Its right there in his name: “Forethought”
This optimism of man undoes him
Channeling Nietzsche today —
Declaring Prometheus, for the first time, to be the enemy of man!

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         Idyll μ 
                 \
                  Themes ψ —> Concerto 2 𝛿 —> Rachmaninoff κ
                  /
                   Militaristic σ

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              Prometheus μ 
                           \
                            Savagery ψ —> Civilization 𝛿 —> Forecasting κ
                            /
                            Zeus σ

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                    Knowledge μ Prometheus
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                                            Epoch ψ Regime —> Unconditional ♂ —> Conditional ♀
                                            /
                                            Strength σ Zeus

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There are two kinds of people in the world; those who try to fit our chaotic existence into a semblance of order, and those who believe that the best one can do is surf the waves of chaos as reality hurls them at you. The latter group has much to thank Nassim Nicholas Taleb for. Taleb’s famous book, The Black Swan, describes the power of unforeseeable events, and the damage they can wreak on unsuspecting societies. This Lebanese-American writer and statistician thinks of himself as an epistemologist of randomness as opposed to a businessman. His work on probability examines the limitations of knowledge, and likewise proves the importance of anticipating seemingly impossible scenarios.

This extremely skeptical starting point has led Taleb to oppose large scale social theorizing. He has gone so far as to say that the Nobel Prize in economics should be done away with, for the damage that economic metanarratives does is immense. Instead, he advances what he calls “robustification” and “anti-fragility.” Not surprisingly, his Ph.D. dissertation focused on the mathematics of derivatives pricing, which is arguably the most unstable part of the market. Regardless of whether you think Taleb goes too far in his sweeping rebuttal of most economic theorizing, at the very least this very bright man’s words are a much needed call for sobriety in a market otherwise known for excess.

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  1. Andrei Shleifer (fave in my 30s, Smith)

  2. Heck-of a-man (fave in my 40s, Nietzsche)

  3. Joseph Stiglitz (fave in my 20s, Marx)

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As of now it’s likely that I’m “done”

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   Dethrone μ 
              \
               Become ψ —> Aesthetic 𝛿 —> Embodiment κ
                /
                 Create σ 

Create a table for book chapter (2)
Enumerate all risk factors (3)
Reference them 
Bunch them together as “calculator”
Reveal key missing variables 
x2
Genetic risk factors 
Perinatal risk factors 
Life-course events 
Nondonor risk 
Donor risk
x3
Factor of concern 
Literature: donor vs nondonor 

     Perinatal μ 
                 \
                  Life-Course ψ —> Nondonor 𝛿 —> Donor κ
                  /
                   Genetic σ

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The warrior has got to be a first-rate psychologist
With a nuanced understanding of the weak And their penchant for high priests
For Pasteurs green, waters still
Patience, arbitrage, resiliency are key

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Yea— I would do it all over again!

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        Shepherd μ 
                   \
                    Pastures ψ —> Restores 𝛿 —> Yea κ
                    /
                    Enemies σ 

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       Yours Truly μ 
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                      Ain’t Nothing, Rent  ψ —> Cum, Spa 𝛿 —> “Rod”, Stuff κ
                     /
                     Table, Hennessy σ 

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I had a very good time the last time you were here & I’ve battle injuries to show for it — war stories to tell

Since you gave me something I’ve never experienced in 40y then that’s 👌🏾. Only a true warrior would understand

But a warrior must remain well practiced. Here it’s a defeated joy: I’m at one glorious in this battle, but then frustrated by the scarcity of battles

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I’m out of town until March

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Aren’t you supposed to be a catholic
How do you feel about doing this
On Ash Wednesday — beginning of lent?

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  1. Young Nietzsche was a precious fellow who was appointed professor at 24 before completion of his PhD

  2. During his scholarship he identified worthy enemies against whom he’d measure his power

  3. His first attempt at 28yo is the work of a fledging scholar steeped in ancestral worship

  4. But Ecce Homo beautifully illustrates how he kept disrupting himself through strength training

  5. At 6k feet above the fray he reserved his energy for duals with Greeks, Hebrews, Christians, and Germans

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Virtually all previous gods have been “beings”: static in essence But the Christian god is always self disrupting He was the Father, then Son, now Holy—

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Sega —

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sophas

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SOPHAS — what is left?

  1. Professional Transcript Entry $69

  2. My transcript from the Bloomberg School (This I can do in July)

  3. Transcript from SoM (On its way)

  4. Submission fees of $135

  5. LoR receipt isn’t necessary on my part (may “check status” after submission)

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Daniel

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      Gold μ 
            \ (Follow)
             Silver ψ —> Iron  𝛿—> Clay κ
            /(Hammer)
             Bronze σ 

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Nebuchadnezzar Nietzsche

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       Babylon μ 
                 \ (Fall)
                  Persia ψ —> Rome 𝛿—> World κ
                 /(Hammer)
                 Greece σ 
                     

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There is such a thing as involuntary coital incontenance, and a subtly different variant of voluntary coital incontenance

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The shrine, Harlem